Saturday, November 3, 2007

My Ordinary Time

The past week or so has been a trying time. I go through these periods once in awhile where I get overwhelmed with trying to be a good parent. The kids have all pushed my buttons and I've been frustrated big time. I begin to feel that my kids behavior will never improve and they are the only ones who can be this bad. Then that leads to me feeling like I'm such a failure as a parent. The most important job that I've been blessed to have and I'm not getting it right, I'm failing. So, I've been in a funk. I know God is there through it all, giving me the graces I need, but I can't seem to reach it and take hold of it. Perhaps He's trying to take me to a new level in my relationship with Him. Perhaps He's telling me to make Him my number one priority again. It's time to refocus and pray, pray, and pray some more.

This video reflects well my feelings. I've always enjoyed listening to Marie Bellet's songs as they reflect so well my thoughts on the vocation of motherhood.

12 comments:

Maryellen said...

I remember that feeling Oh so well!
Relax, my dear. You'll never be the perfect Mom you'd like to be, but you are pleasing to God for your day in - day out courage doing a monumental task. Motherhood is bigger than any of us mere mortals.

Our doubts and insecurities are the suffering we endure as humans. All we can do is our own best, and offer to God our attempts.

You're raising children in a very difficult time in history. You are bucking the tide. It was much easier for my generation and I thought it was very hard. And yes there will come a time when those children will be your friends and you will cherish your conversations with them.

God is very much With You. He has called you to this task and He will equip you.

Lisa@UnexpectedJourney said...

Maryellen - Thank you SO MUCH for your encouraging words. Sometimes I need to hear just that. Blessings to you!

Therese said...

Hi Lisa,

Thanks for dropping by my blog and leaving a comment.

I can relate to feeling like I am failing. I think that all mother's go through this at some time.

I too find it hard to put God at the centre of my life. I have found that prayer first thing in the morning has helped me focus my day on him and helps me set my priorities straight.

God bless
Therese

Lisa@UnexpectedJourney said...

Therese - Thanks for stopping by and sharing. I think all us mothers need some encouragement now and then. I'll be back to visit your blog!

Blessings,
Lisa

Therese said...

Thanks Lisa,

I have subscribed to your feeds and will be back here too when you update.

God bless you and yours.
Therese

MITZI said...

Oh Lisa, you have me crying. You are a wonderful mother. You are a better mother than I ever was. Your mothering and sacrifice are a wonderful form of worship to the Lord. Don't allow Satan to tear you down. It's his lies that you are listening too and that's what's bringing the blues. Put on your praise music and PRAISE THE LORD. The joy of the Lord will fill your spirit. God is in the praises of His people. The Word says, "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as your reward. it is the Lord you are serving." Colossians 3:23-24. I look forward to seeing you Friday at the game. I love you Sis.

Lisa said...

God bless you! If the knowlege of the fact that you have company in sometimes feeling this way helps at all, then you know you're in the midst of thousands (millions) of warming hugs of understanding right now! Pray! And wait. This too shall pass. Saying a Hail Mary for you and me, both!

Lisa@UnexpectedJourney said...

Mitzi - Thank you for that verse. I should have that one memorized. And thanks as always for your encouragement.

Lisa - So glad you stopped to visit and comment! I appreciate the hug and prayer! :)

patjrsmom said...

I just recently posted a meditation by Thomas Merton, which is very encouraging in the ways that we try to discern and follow God's will for us. God knows your heart and He is so pleased with your efforts to know, love and serve Him and to teach your children to do the same.

God Bless,
Jane
(another mom on the journey)

Lisa@UnexpectedJourney said...

Jane - Thank you for your encouraging words. This can be a difficult but oh so rewarding journey!

Cmerie said...

Lisa,
I love Marie Bellet as well. Thank you for sharing this video, as well as your beautiful post.
God bless

Lisa@UnexpectedJourney said...

Thanks for stopping by, Cmerie!